And I’m learning how to be okay with it and go with the flow

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I know I can’t be alone in having a mental illness. I’ll be honest, I’m wondering if I have more than one. I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and Major Depression about six years ago when I was in community college. I struggled with many of my emotions and I still do.

I had to go into hospitalization for a bit (separate story for another day) and I still feel like I’m not getting any better. It likely doesn’t help that I’m writing this in one of my manic episodes. I may or may not have bipolar disorder but…

I recently turned 30 and am unsure how I feel about it

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Thirty, flirty and thriving, I want to be thirty, flirty and thriving. This is a line from the 2004 movie “13 Going on 30”. Which came out when I was about 13 actually. I never wished to be 30 growing up. I was perfectly content with each age as they came but now that I’m 30…it’s like I feel like my life is speeding up. It is almost like a quarter life crisis, just 5 years late.

I’m only just now obtaining a Bachelors degree after 12 years of sitting in my anxiety about what I want to do with…

Many people assume that because I have tattoos and piercings, that I likely work in retail or am a tattoo artist myself. Wrong. I work in an office and it isn’t that uncommon.

Growing up, all I’ve heard is that people who are tattooed and pierced people are dirty people who don’t have great job prospects. I never saw people that way. I saw people with tattoos and piercings as free spirited people who love showing their personality on their skin.

When I graduated high school I didn’t get a tattoo right away. I was too scared to. I had a Monroe piercing about 3 months after I turned 18, my mother was never going to let me do it prior to when I turned 18. I thought tattoos were beautiful but was…

I recently underwent a procedure called laparoscopic tubal ligation, in where they cut parts of my tubes out

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I had wanted to be childfree for a long time. Ever since I was 22. I knew that I was too young to be able to undergo the procedure and I had no means to pay for it or insurance. So I was careful, I was on birth control (NuvaRing) and I tried to limit my sexual partners.

Dating was hard because most of the guys I would date either had kids or wanted kids. I nipped that in the bud because I knew what I wanted. Some of the guys were okay with it, there were others who took…

Now that I’m almost 29, people are insistent on asking when I’m having kids. When I say I don’t want to have any, people look at me as if I sprouted two heads.

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There are plenty of reasons why I don’t want to have them, none that I have to explain to you readers or anyone else…but I will for the sake of this story. I’ve known this about myself since I was 21 years old and it hasn’t change in the last 8 years.

  1. I have never felt “maternal”

I don’t really understand kids. When I think back to when I was a kid, I didn’t really like other kids either. Mostly, I think it was because I was a loner. …

Some improvements have been made for women in the office and being made to feel comfortable. There are still some setbacks that we women have to deal with that we shouldn’t.

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I currently work in an office setting. It is probably the best job I have ever had and don’t plan on leaving for a while. Even with how much I care for my job, there are some things I wish I could change about its culture.

The office I work in is a very male-dominated office, other locations are similar. The role I am in is usually one a woman would fill but they have given me other tasks that take me off the overhead work. My issue is not so much with the younger males in the office (close…

Pokemon Go has been out for almost 3 years and my husband just decided to get the app because he got a newer phone. I have been playing it regularly since I got my new phone last year. It has done wonders for our marriage.

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Quality Time

My husband has been going to school to obtain his B.S. and succeed in the I.T. industry. He is working almost full-time while in school. I will be going to school this summer to get my B.S. in Professional Communication and Emerging Media. For the next two years, we are going to be very busy.

We both got to finishing our degrees later in life, opting to work first before going to school. An understatement for my husband as he spent the first 4.5 years after high school in the Marine Corps, he has always been learning and working. …

Literally no one did.


As many have read in the last month or so, the game Anthem isn’t doing too well. As a fan of previous BioWare games, (Dragon Age and Mass Effect) I can confidently say that I have never had any interest to play Anthem and I likely never will.

After an underwhelming release of Mass Effect: Andromeda, you’d think they would try to push their focus onto Dragon Age after its final DLC Trespasser for Dragon Age: Inquisition. I’m aware that they were already working on Anthem prior to the release of previously mentioned games. …

Making mistakes is a part of life, learn from it and move on.

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Yesterday I made a mistake of sending an invite to clients under To and not BCC. Oops! I was embarrassed to say the least because it feels like such a rookie mistake and common sense says that if you are emailing to outside the company, with multiple contacts, to use blind carbon copy.

My work is very cool about these sort of things and brushed it off as a beginners mistake. I will not repeat it next time. I spent a long time looking up different pieces…

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It seems to be a trend on Facebook for people to talk about “cutting out toxic people”. While it may get annoying to see those posts on your timeline, people have legitimate reasons for cutting out people. Whether it be abuse, maturity, difference of opinion, etc.

My experience on this took me time before I realized that I needed to do it for my health.

I always saw the good in people even if it meant sacrificing my happiness. I thought that I needed to have as many friends and family as possible because I was afraid to be alone…

Nicole Withers

Writer for Volume One and Kwinn Pop. Various publications on TheGamer.

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